August 28, 2022,
Happy Sunday! What a busy weekend! I am so ready to just relax but… that’s not going to happen because school goes back tomorrow lol! I honestly hate to complain about school though because I am so blessed with amazing teachers and friends but sometimes it is just so exhausting. I’m sure you all who go to school or even work can agree. When you do something so often, days can easily become tiring. Anyways, about my weekend, I left at like four o’clock on Friday got to Ponte Vedra around 11:30 then turned around Sunday to come back home. But it was so much fun. We got to celebrate my cousins bridal shower and it was so cute. I got to help decorate and plan for the shower and it turned out adorable. Then we got to enjoy the beach and just hang out with each other. I loved it so much but am wore out.
So, how was your weekend? Busy? Slow? Stressful? Or all of the above? I will have you all know that I have been praying for you all every day this week. I will be transparent with y’all, I had a hard week last week. I was so stressed out because I had two tests at school that I did not feel ready for, I was getting ready to go out of town (side not - y’all know I am a home body), and I have had like the most annoying upper respiratory crap. Yet, through it all I just prayed that God would make me comfortable and give me strength and to now be on the other side and able to look at the excited weekend He gave me is truly a blessing.
I know that I do it all lot but do you every find yourself questioning God? Like asking where is is at? If He is listening to your prayers? If He is going to help you with the trials your facing? The truth is it is often when we find ourselves asking these questions that God is in the midst of His work. Guiding us along the perfect path He has for your life and mine. Sometimes we have to take a step back in order to see and appreciate all He has and is doing. It can be so easy to just overlook all His guidance and blessings. We get so side tracked with “life stuff” that we forget to thank God for what He is doing. Honestly, I am the first to admit I struggle with this, not saying I am not thankful for His works but I do forget to praise Him like I should.
Let’s work on it together! We will work this week to give more appreciation to our Father and check back in next week! I love y’all so so much and hope you have a great week!
August 21, 2022
Good morning everyone! I pray you have all had a great week. This is really random but crazy thought, yesterday I saw a post on Facebook and it said we only have 13 Fridays until Christmas. I’m not ready for that are you? Anyways besides that point, I have been praying for everyone who reads my updates. I have prayed that God would give you all the strength and the faith to confess to someone what your going through. Like I said a few weeks back, life is a series of ups and downs but no matter where in life we are, we all need a strong source of support. Therefore, I want you to open up, it doesn’t have to be in front of a crowd or even a small group. It may just be your mom or friend or it may even be a phone call! The truth is that God did not create us to fight the battle of life so, reach out. Don’t be afraid because trust me, the more you express the trials you are facing, the more others are going to relate and open up to you as well. This is so important to me because looking back on my battle with anorexia, I often ask myself what would be different if I would of reached out and asked for help sooner. Now by no means at I saying that I would change what I have been through because honestly I am beyond grateful for my testimony and would not change it for the world. However, I find myself asking this question quite a bit. The reality is that when we reach out for help, the sooner we will be able to get a grip on whatever it is your going through.
It can be so hard to make the call for help because living in the world we live in, many have labeled it as “being weak” when honestly, I look at asking for help as a sign of strength. It takes more effort and drive to reach out in a time of need than to simply step back and try to ignore it. I really pray that this update will help you all with asking for help. It definitely takes practice but it will be worth it in the end. I love you all so much and I hope that you all have an amazing week! Remember to stay strong and reach out if you ever need anything.
August 14, 2022
Good afternoon to all my favorite people! I hope that you have all had a great weeks. We haven’t talked in a couple weeks and that is partly my fault. I went to update last Sunday and my internet went out then I forgot to post! So I am very sorry about that but with that being said I also had some very important things happen to me over the past couple of weeks! First of all, I celebrated my fourth year in recovery!!!! This is so hard for me to believe, at times it feels like I was in treatment just yesterday and too think it was four years ago blows my mind. But I have to say it is amazing the amount of change God can provide within just a couple of years. I know I say this a lot but I truly do not have words to express how thankful I am for my story and testimony. Who knows where I would be today if wasn’t for the huge battles me and my family faced. As difficult and never-ending as it felt, I can happily say my eating disorder truly changed me for the better.
To be honest, you may look at that last sentence and think, “YOUR CRAZY” but I am being so for real! And this is true for all of the battles and trials we face. God has a perfectly laid out plan and while it He never promises it to be all happy times or exciting events, He does promise that all of His works are for His good. Which means that all the ups and downs of life we face are for the betterment of our lives in the long run, despite how it feels in the present.
The second thing that happened to me was a pure God moment. This past weekend, I got to run in a local 5K. It was early in the morning and the weather was perfect! I ended up doing really well in the race and right as I was about to leave, this lady came up to me and told me good job and asked if I ran a lot. I knew right away that this was a perfect opportunity to share my testimony. It was so amazing to see how God opens doors all over the place for me to tell my story to others and while it was a quick conversation, I was so happy to be able to tell her about Bounceback Beautifully. This story makes me think of yet another time this week I got to share. I went to the post office to send off some B3 boxes and the postal lady asked me what B3 was. After I told her my story she opened up and told me about her story. It is so crazy to experience God working right before me. I pray every single day that I would make an impact of the people who I live around me and thanks being to God I am able to do that! I share all of this to let you know that there is a purpose for what you are facing. God has a reason and a plan for you and He wants you only to Be Still and trust in Him.
I love you all so much and pray that you have a great week!