I believe that the one thing more inspiring than any quote, song, or person has ever come up with is the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ. In 2012, I asked Jesus into my heart. At the time, I felt like I had done the right thing.  Just a couple of months later, I got baptized. I stood beside the baptistry truly thinking I understood what it meant to give my entire life to Christ. I often times wonder now if I really truly did at the time. Anyways, years past and nothing really changed for me. While everyone said that "once you have made that decision, your life would change forever", I never really felt that change. So, I just kept on living my life without any change. I had it set in my mind that I was now going to Heaven so there was nothing to worry about. 

It wasn't until my experience this past year, that I started to really question my salvation. Many times while I was in the midst of my disorder, my mom would ask me if I felt secure in my relationship with Christ. While I might of said yes, I never really did. I called out asking God why He would cause my family to go through this trial. Why He wouldn't just heal me right then and there. I didn't understand why this had to happen to me. 

Then came the day I got dropped off at my residential treatment center. It was at this time that God laid upon my heart that while I was there, I needed to share the Gospel, the hope of Christ with the other clients. And, I tried. I thought I could certainly share the wonderful news of Jesus Christ. Whether it meant not laughing at an inappropriate joke or playing Christian music over all of the non-Godly music, I was going to do everything in my power to be "salt and light". 

It was not until I discharged my treatment center that I really started to question my salvation. I was not 100% sure if I was going to Heaven, and something told me that I needed to make it right with God. After about three months, when I was in the midst of another spiritual battle, on February 11, 2019,  I did it!  I rededicated my life to Christ. That time in my life was a huge turning point. I felt like everything about me changed. I really started to realize that as long as I was pleasing God, I no longer needed to worry about my looks, popularity, or any of the selfish traits that got me so caught up in a devastating disorder. I am here to tell you from experience, this realization saved my life.  He already has the plan.  He already knows our future.  Although some days I still struggle with my disorder,  I know that I am not alone and my God will carry me through even the darkest of days. 

I keep my eyes always on the Lord. For with Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Pslams 16:8 

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Uplifting Scriptures

Do not be afraid for I am with you. 

Isaiah 43:5 

God is within her, she will not fail. 

Psalms 46:5

I will not be shaken. 

Psalms 16:8

God is my refuge.

Psalms 25:20

Fear not for I have redeemed you, I have called you by name, you are Mine. 

Isaiah 43:1 

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QUOTES

The pain you feel today is the strength you feel tomorrow.

 Unknown 

At any given moment, you have the power to say, "This is not how my story will end." 

-Christine Mason Miller 

There is no magic cure, no making it go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore. 

- Laurie Halse Anderson

Keep your head

up.

God gives His hardest battles to His strongest 

soldiers...

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. 

- Joshua J. 

SONGS

Your hardest times often lead to the greatest moments of your life. Keep the faith. It will all be worth it in the end. 

-Unknown

The God Who Stays